Una Carta de Amor

My dearest, I just wanna to express my gratitude for you, for all you’ve done for me.

Certainly, it isn’t good enough, just like what Buble says, it’s cold and flat, and you deserve more. 

But trust me, the words I put here are truly straight from my heart.

I just wanna tell you, how precious you are for me.

And here I go. . .

In my life, you are the angel sent from above, to end my life of solitude.

You are the light that lights up my days, the lighthouse that guides my ship back home.

Million thanks I wanna give to you, for your patience, your warmth, your supports, your smiles, and above all, your love.

My friend said that being with you changes me a lot, in a good way and to be better, surely. I remember when I got crazy and stressed up, burdened by my duty and final project recently, you, it’s you, who encouraged me not to give up.

It’s you who said never stop trying and always giving the best out of me in anything I get involved into.

Mom, uti, and you, are the greatest motivator in my life.

You all are my main reason to finish my undergraduate, and because of your prayers, I can finish it earlier.

You are a sister, best friend, mother, teacher, personal motivator, and lover in one body.

Being with you is one of the greatest blessings from heaven.

Being your special one makes me feel to be the luckiest person in the world.

There’s nothing more I ask out of you.

I pray to the Lord every day, ask Him to always protect you and bless you with goodness in your days.

Einstein once said that gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love, but for me, your gravity enchants me to deeply, helplessly, willingly, and irrevocably fall for you.

Just one wish from me, for you to stay with me, close to my heart, ‘cause I need you.

I love you, still and always do…

She Knows . . .

She knows, that she is the light of my life

She knows, that without her, I am just an ordinary human

It’s just how she gives me the strength to face the world

It’s just how she assures me

It’s just how she loves me, tenderly

It’s just how her love changes me to be a superhuman . . .

I can only imagine a life with her that I live for, because without her, there'll be no life for me..

Bloody miss her...

First Anniversary

You, my Vermouth Belmont, Vebe, Robin, In*****, my Koala, my chocolate cookies, or whatever you may be called, firstly, I'm grateful to have you in my life, and at this very day, you've been my constant companion, my partner and my lover for a year long.
Witnessed by God and facebookers who read this stat, in our first anniversary, here I go; Would you give me the honor, again, to be your partner, your lover, your companion in your bad and good times, in your tears and laughter, for better or worse, and be together for the following years ahead us till death do us part?

pesan jiwaku untuk separuh belahannya

Karena aku telah berjanji,
selamanya adalah batas waktu kita.
So don't you worry
neither time nor anybody,
have enough power to separate us,
I promise you this will last.

Tubuh ini hanyalah wadah fana,
namun jiwa dan kekekalannya,
beserta cinta yg kutitipkan untukmu,
mampu menghapus jurang ruang dan waktu.

Menunggu menunggu dan selalu menunggu,
bersabar dan selalu bertahan,
sampai kelak tak kan ada yang mampu memisahkan.

Karena cinta ini bukanlah cinta,
yang mampu dibengkokkan oleh sang waktu,
takkan berkurang,
juga saat rona di pipi memudar.

Bilamana kau rindukan aku,
maka dengarlah jerit jiwa ini,
yang juga merindu separuh belahannya.

Dan pada akhirnya kekasih,
cintamu akan selalu menguatkan aku,
meski kau dan aku terpisah jauh,
pastikan cinta ini tak kan rapuh.
Hati kita selalu dekat
terpatri lekat dan erat.

http://www.natsexistence.co.cc

Proses. . . .

Yank, ceritanya malem ini aku mau tanya agak lebay nih, nggak apa-apa ya?

Emang mau tanya apa sih…?

Kenapa ya kita nggak ketemu dari dulu, kan seenggaknya kita bisa bareng-bareng lebih lama yank..

Sayang….. Kalo kita ketemu dari dulu, mungkin malah kita gak jadian lho.

Lho, kenapa gitu yank?

Ya mungkin aja kamu belum seperti Nat yang sekarang, dan aku nggak seperti aku yang sekarang, karena kita belum berproses untuk menjadi seperti kita yang sekarang…

Iya ya yank. Kalau kita ketemu dari dulu mungkin kamu kenalnya sama Nat yang emosian, belum bisa mengendalikan diri, super egois, childish, brutal, preman banget dah….

Nah, bener kan? Jadi kenapa harus nyesel baru ketemu sekarang? Justru dengan interval waktu itu kita mengalami proses untuk menjadi kita yang lebih baik kan?

I love you baby..

Pokoke I Lop Yu Laaahhhh!!!!

Waktu itu, ditengah percakapan kami, kembali terlontar lagi pertanyaan itu. Sebuah pertanyaan yang selalu tidak bisa dijawab dengan sempurna.

Sayang, kenapa kamu bisa jatuh cinta denganku?

Hadoohhh, kok tanya itu lagi sih? Kan kamu udah tahu jawabannya…

Iya, aku pasti tahu kamu bakalan jawab “I don’t know”,…

Naahhh, makanya, kenapa ditanyain lagi??

Pengen tau aja, sapa tau baby udah nemu jawabannya sekarang, hehehehe

Hmmmffhhh… gak tau ya Bi ya… aku hilang akal sehat kali.. xixixixixi

Yaaahhhhh… berarti ntar kalo udah balik lagi akal sehatnya kamu gak sayang aku lagi donk??

Heleh ngomong apa kamu ta yank.. yank..

Ayo ta, dijawab ta, kok bisa?

Nah gini wes, aku tanya baby, kok bisa suka sama aku?

Eheheheh (aku tersenyum kecut).. sama yank, gak tau juga..

Ogaahhh pokoke harus dijawab!!!!

Duh, sabar atuh neng, lagi dipikirin jawabannya nih.. hmmm, kenapa ya?......

Ayo cepetaaaannnnn dijawabbbb!!

Lah mbuh yank, lha wong ngerti-ngerti aku sayang kamu kok, POKOKE I LOP YU dah

WAHAHAHAHAHAHA, ayank…ayank…kamu itu ya, isok ae lho (*bisa aja lho)

Jadi? Kesimpulan obrolan kita malem ini apa yank?

Apa aja tadi ya?emmm…

Oke saudara-saudara, jadi kesimpulan pembicaraan kita pada malam hari ini adalah.. (diucapkan dengan gaya ala moderator acara bincang-bincang politik)

Kita sama-sama gak tau bagaimana bisa kita saling jatuh cinta.. dan, POKOKE I LOP YU DAH!!!

A Letter from the Past

Babe,
I need to be with you,if only for a nite.
To be the one who has ur arms n hold u tight...

Sttt!!... Aku nggak mau you ask me whether it's wrong or right. In my life,dalam kamus hidupku,gak pernah ada yg salah,yg ada cuma keterbatasan kita melihat jauh dan mendalam.
Everyone has the reason to do something,right or wrong,yg pasti aku juga punya alasan buat trus menjalani semua sama kamu,coz you're the one and I believe in you.
Aku tau itu salah,ya...aku dgn tegar mengakui itu. Tapi aku cuma manusia biasa. Aku juga nggak segan berdiri buat something yg menurut aku benar.

Babe... If feeling love and happy is wrong,so tell me what's named true??

Sejak pertama aku tau aku salah,aku gak pernah ngrasain ini sebelumnya,moreover with a girl.
I thought you didn't realize that.
I'm scared,there'll be one day,when u say to stop this,coz it's wrong. Tapi selama ini kita berdua 100% sadar soal itu!! Kita nggak pernah membicarakannya,kita berusaha menutup2i kenyataan bahwa itu salah,kita ingin membohongi diri kita sendiri,dan aku tdk mau membicarakan hal itu coz I'm scared you realize n leave me alone.
But babe.....setelah kamu ngomong kalo sebenarnya it's wrong dan lebih mengakui kesalahan itu,justru perasaanku lebih dalam,bukannya pergi.. Aku malah lebih bisa sayang ke kamu dgn 'lebih jujur',nggak lagi takut akan hari itu. Kita sama2 sadar kalo itu salah,tapi kenapa aku justru lega? Aku nggak ngerti...

Babe...
Kita punya pilihan buat ngrasa bahagia ato nggak, n nggak ada standar yg tepat buat ngukur kebahagiaan seseorang,coz it's really personal sifatnya cuma hati kita yg tau..
I feel fine to be with u,aku memilih untuk bahagia,no matter what they said.
Yes it's wrong! But at the same time, I find strength to face it! There's no way to escape. You teach me to face all the thing bravely,thanks babe.....

Don't stop loving me sweetheart...

Nenekku selalu mengajariku supaya aku nggak jadi cewek murahan,barang obralan di toko,semua orang boleh pegang,di beli ato nggak,punya duit ato nggak. Tapi aku harus seperti barang mahal dan istimewa gak ada yg sembarang menyentuh,coz yg nyentuh juga orang2 yg istimewa,orang2 yg mempunyai niat untuk memiliki. I always remember this,my love is too expensive. I want to dedicate it to special one. I let it chooses it's own self choice,coz my heart is the only thing that never lies to me. It leads me to go this far and I safe. Now,if it chooses you,my choice : I believe my heart, I'm going to be safe too, I need not to be fearful..

Babe....
I Love You,
that's all I know,
and all I need to know

Gut nite,hugs n kisses from me...


- itu td sepucuk surat from my ex-gf,beberapa tahun yg lalu,saat kita msh bersama,saat kita saling jatuh cinta.. Aku msh menyimpan smua surat2mu,.. Bagaimanapun dirimu sekarang, kmu pernah menjadi bagian hdupku,orang yg pnh mengisi hati dan hari2ku,orang yg pnh mencintai aq jg....

Corat coret

The Goddess,the magnificent one,hanging around..
She reaches me in one bound..
O what a lovable mistress,just irresistible,
relieving my distress, o my pretentious noble..
Gees,I'm lost in the bliss...

Miss you so bad...

Dont u know that i miss u so bad?
Dah 4 hari kita gak ketemu,tmen bilang kmu gak masuk coz lg sakit..
Is that true?
Kalo emg sakit,hopefully you'll get well soon..


Yah,aq memang ngefans berat sama dia..
she's my lecturer,
she's beyond doubt beautiful!
She's just like a supermodel
she's soo kind..
She's so elegant..
And u drive my crazy,
i spend days and nights thinking of u..

Cepet sembuh y ma'am..
Miss ur smile n ur sonorous voice....